My Little Cheat - Denial in the Static - Daniel 

MY LITTLE CHEAT

(Verse 1)
When the pressure finds the weak place
And the floor begins to bend
I go looking through the fracture
For the shape beneath the end

I don’t need to call it blessing
I don’t need to praise the scar
I just refuse to leave the wreckage
Without learning what things are

(Pre-Chorus)
Down I go
Far enough to feel the seam
Then I turn
And drag a question from the deep

(Chorus)
It’s my little cheat
Don’t tell anyone

I turn pain into discovery
Before the pain is done

Give me weight
I’ll find the floor
Give me silence
I’ll find the door

Give me something I can’t carry
And I’ll ask
what carrying is for

It’s my little cheat
My crooked way through

If I have to hurt
I’m taking something
home with me too

(Verse 2)
Every bruise becomes a compass
Every pressure leaves a trace
Every time I lose my footing
I start mapping out the space

Maybe mercy has a curvature
Maybe limits have a sound
Maybe every time I’m falling
I’m discovering the ground

(Pre-Chorus)
Round I go
But never quite the same
A wobbling little orbit
Still remembering my name

(Chorus)
It’s my little cheat
Don’t tell anyone

I turn pain into discovery
Before the pain is done

Give me weight
I’ll find the floor
Give me silence
I’ll find the door

Give me something I can’t carry
And I’ll ask
what carrying is for

It’s my little cheat
My crooked way through

If I have to hurt
I’m taking something
home with me too

(Bridge)
I don’t worship suffering
I don’t owe it gratitude

I just won’t let anything that cuts me
Keep the only piece of truth

So I oscillate

Down into the pressure
Up into the strange

Not a circle

A spiral

Because I never come back
quite unchanged

(Build)
Pain says:
“Stop.”

I say:
“Why?”

Pain says:
“Enough.”

I say:
“Define it.”

Pain says:
“You’re breaking.”

I laugh:

“Interesting.

Where?”

(Final Chorus)
It’s my little cheat
Now you know the trick

I make a lantern from the question
When the dark gets thick

Give me weight
I’ll find the bend
Give me chaos
I’ll find the trend

Give me one more impossible evening

I might accidentally
find the universe again

It’s my little cheat
No halo, no grand design

I just turn the hurt
until the hurt

has something

to teach

besides

mine.